What people say on the internet  reload-I mightbe writ

26 April 2019

You worked hard over the years and now it is as big as can be, all your own work as well with friends out there, I spend many nights and still its not enough, will anyone ever know or  did they speculate hugely? xxx - we know , I do - still what stay in Las Vegas stay in Las Vegas.

I never flatter myself because the love/need for you is huge out there..., oh love just let my heart be still.

Promise me that you had only one above the rest in your mind that you choose above the rest that you liked the best is my only hope.

Things  like love has to go only one way in the end,  like a dream or not at all from what I know or heard or seen somewhere about.

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He said, about online talk

It is illegal to listen to people on internet when nobody's was asking  for you, otherwise how would you know what is said in my home in the first place, still it is illegal as far as I know, apart from the people I know talking to me, that I talk to  and watch mainly recordings nowadays, I was no longer a kid years ago and their is no way I was or can listen/ing to them without anyone's permission unless I am super natural [smile] how silly, and that I am not or a hacker, still I know from the messages I got/seen..., I am fine  really,  but need my privacy, oh... unless a recorded video can be streamlined talking in-between nowadays.  ps  don't need anyone's help, is fine and no danger and love you all, suppose anyone would tell if they felt concern and good you keep a eye on me, especially someone like you, a beautiful person in a level up from me in life, ❤ I should be so lucky.,, will leave it like that, exaggerations really , and that near and far away the world is talking to ..😃😺🐕🐈🐆🦁🦀❤

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16/09//2018

 

R-What happened with that girl you suppose to meet in town?. G- nothing...maybe something happened... R- ha you, you got dump...
R-But you're crazy about her. G-Yes, I am.
R-Well, why don't you run off with her? What are you waiting for? G- I don't actually know her.
R-Really?. G-I only know her through the, uh... you're not going to believe this...
R-Oh, let me guess. Through the Internet?. G-Yes, R-a powerful place of words. G-yes
R-Here some advice... G-Why should I take your advice - I am stuck?. R- Shss, pay attention - try and meet again because  looking at you now it look as if you are hurting yourself keeping the truth prolonged.

R- Your angel awaits!. G- I just wish. R- Now do it OK.  G- ' is not answering just staring away in a imaginative glazed moist eyed stare - for awhile' and  then said I most probably will, so much in it, OMG just must know..., more so now.

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18/08/2018

 I saw you progress with  success, all I wanted was a caress and not to make a mess, in the meanwhile I was babysitting and of course I was waiting,  the years went by,  we could never say goodbye, but time made me fonder, never did my soul wonder.

 

28/07/2018

Sometimes I’m clueless and I’m clumsy, but I’ve got friends that love me and they know just where I stand It’s all a part of me. and that’s who I am

Wish you could see yourself the way I do. 

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One Step at a Time

There’s no need to rush It’s like learning to fly, or falling in love.  it's gonna happen when it’s,  supposed to happen.

17/07/2018

I feel life has grown up, and I am leaving all those things played behind - because of you that have been with me some time now, and we kept a eye over each other, although I might not admit it straight out when we have our first chat. xxx.

There is no one like you. I dream and I dream, of you... still.

Blowing... and said 'Bubble's!'  green and red, oh that face baby!

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How can someone shout out a cry in a thriller comedy movie?, more a cry of heart felt in memory of 'one' another at the moment sounded so sweet wanted to kiss the lips at that moment in-time right there  if I could have from me hearing it.

Still do the most beautiful model dressing in English attire with that accompaniment face, shockingly good to observe, wow!

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I would tell you everything I know, but for instance at the moment there are to many coincidences to speak of and why I don't know completely, still so as if there is a  'deity' that makes them happen,  or coincidences just happen in plenty lately...

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You both make it happen, maybe apart then you give each other a chance to love like you should ... 

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Person never left and the feeling never left you anyway , and you don't know how to love another, only the one you still love. 

To afraid to admit to the one you love or to accept, whatever happens will never go away anyway how others see it - whatever...

And never be fully happy because of this stigma you might find yourself in. 

I have lived the same old life and don't find it a stigma, although it might look like a stigma to the well lived status. 

 

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11/06/2018

I must confess I was looking for you just about everywhere, just to read and see  new about you, only came up on Instagram's messages, but I could swear you said that we..

Entertainer  you of course

16/12/2017

First Things I  Notice about a woman is how she makes me feel inside or not, pronto to make yourself like what you really don't, still kindness is part of life  and wrong to pretend you love or do for whatever reason, tacked as time wasters, that have a confusing life on the rebound, so many.

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Maybe not sorry for wasting time or been a fool but for not realizing sooner and for not seeing clearer in love relationship, by bolding jumping into it.

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Really if you love someone you forgive easier, because loving someone just happened, some make it sounds more how we should behave rather than..., good points said, I am learning, but still I don't like a late arrival date but it happens, sometimes we wait for years and we somehow forgive because of love, anyway I love a natural beauty, not to much about perfection makeup, "Cosmetics" Industry cares about profits from what I see.

 

1/11/ 2017

Can be so busy or long way trip, you?, what are you doing to me, xx - on my mind thinking of you - working or thinking? -  stranger you not, proper.♬

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I never wish to tempt the wrong person because I don't love that I am not in love with to safe wasted time and hurt even if it comes across as if I did it out of kindness and friendliness.

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You even wrote a book so I believe you are wiser and must have a clearer views and spend most time correcting your lines, on life itself rather than a person with less grammar.

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And as I saw in the media overseas they keep on telling each other don't give up when you on a winning streak, because maybe the people know now that next election they will put vote to what they believe is theirs.

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You have lived a different life as media sees you all these years and no one will ever know, and you deserve a great new life, and the things you have sacrificed for your fan's just to keep a clear media report day after day [or rather said nothing] for so long even with my understanding I should know after a while it become the necessary to avoid confrontations which you don't need, because your are really a kind person and wise by now seem to be that I know followed you all these years and it would be great if you can continue and have both life's you wish in one.

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I am playing snooker on the game console, it happens to keep my mind busy for hours on end with the complexity to follow the next ball in a better position to a pocket, and a lot of training makes me better like a pro.

 

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20/10/2017

If I look for happiness, I just went to find it, sorry I didn't tell you much and the way back might seem timeless, might have thought you already knew why I went to seek.

There was tough times and at times I was foolish then, but I only want to remember the smile on your faces with the good times and how you made me laugh, didn't care for the always better answers if there was no care, I have my own wisdom shall you seek.

I MIGHT LOOK LIKE I'M LISTENING BUT IN MY HEAD IT LOOKED LIKE I WAS ALREADY READY FOR ADVENTURE THEN, JUST HAD TO FOUND OUT THEN...

When people are unhappy sooner they return home sooner, and it didn't mean I never loved you, I was searching for a better life deep in my mind before and I have loved and in my mind and soul I have found love better now than what might have been should I have stayed then, so be happy for me, there is wisdom here, surely you don't believe that there is the only place of happiness, never tell me how much I love my family, because I love all of you in any name and still you stood by me. even when you had a little rough time, well aware of you, x.

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You stayed with him until he's last days and the photo's where endearing, you are a saint and to anyone in need.

 

God is great to me, but I like the way you go out there and talk to people with a/in happy thought, I see it, they respond to you.

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What you have done for all mother is amazing, and I was only one of them even if I appeared to be the lost sheep, afar.

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Remember when I was young, you create such a positivity and I still believe and took some of your wisdom on my way, you found a good in me and even when I saw life as a doubt through my inexperience growing up then.

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I saw you when you where younger, encourage you because you are the best and worth it and everyday you cross my mind.

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I know you put a sad face on the screen because you care not because you are mean.

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And sister when you wrote to tell me dad has died, I was shocked because it felt to soon and later really cried because he was the only dad I had, still I remember my older brother was looking mostly over me and younger family like mother did when I was young.

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Oh great Luke has just sign on 3 years in College, official, a big step, might move to another local College where a right education might be for the right subject in what he study'/s..

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Early

I know I have to earn your respect, I am here to stay.

Heart is always looking for a way and love will turn you around, turn you around.

Comes a time and the test will come and we will see the worth of our love, I know that I love you so.

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I talk about me and really what you must have done to breach to stay OK, to keep your heart where you want to be and to deal with life as it is, I keep my eyes open to see when it really breaks through then happy will at last then start.

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South of what, green scenery?,  you will be a great deal of help, 'you' I love you babe!

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13/10/2017

Brexit, majority in England was as we know just more than half against and is agreed to be divided, is the only way out after the exit to at least meet them halfway and how would anyone in England feel?, easy or hard, the question is what is the best, what will our government leaders decide still and where does the pound stand and the affect?, it has been years now and must be important because of that time past, surely the most talked about in and out on news and over the world in time past and now at least every week now on news as far back as I can remember when it started.

Talk about 'divided' so many editions, regulations maintained by regular revision and is divided all over the world nowadays in law and order, is it because we have more choice on what we feel is right or at least stick with it till it makes better sense for all to see with time past, the born leaders still pursuing when all hope is gone even as a likeable person and never give up when the strength appear and will or seems more on a new attempt.

 

I love you and lately I feel more emotions and need and it is hard,  come to understand it might be true they believe they love you more.

Has been with me for some time, and maybe if you ask... might not be in the mood or feel like telling you today.

Don't miss a trick and how come the high and lows, like saying "you better shape up because I need you babe and my heart is set on you, you know my love is true"!, everlasting.

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05/10/2017

Talent is cheaper than table salt. What separates the talented individual from the successful one is a lot of hard work. Stephen king.

You have to stay faithful to what you're working on, no matter you will find a agreeable way/answer with your wishful thinking as before, I trust you will: talent with a big heart or talent with a big future?,  yet as always you have to maintain sincere in your future choice. - my question, or do we change or forgive, which one will abate you before you get a chance to blink, OK maybe at times or when it feels bad then, but really it can only be show business or like they say the show must...?

 

4/10/2017 -  In the through life the ultimate reward so the mind believe is 'inlove' and it will hold strong

When you wake up in the morning and just that one person is on your mind and so on through the day,  it make your mind believe it is the only real love in your life, this is the ultimate truth and you will be living a lie if you if you share another, another then it seems they just domino peaces really that somehow later will tumble and fall away because of your love for this person and seen it before in other people happened, if this person is so to say camping in your head then you are seriously hooked and will have ups and downs, love is an addiction such as gambling or substance abuse, this for your own need and in many cases you are less concerned, well suppose to think less what anyone might think, especially after a long period and will pray somehow that you didn't made a earlier advance of course with the same feelings met, this love has driven me at time because I know it would make me happy and there was no other need for a better life.

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In my experience for the person's love got just stronger over time, like me love is an important part of us, in your Chemistry test and divides people into distinct personalities and the one just lifts above others, even more with time, seeking curiosity, creativity, unpredictability in this [unsure what it entails but sure will bring a happy glow all around day after day] and high energy what this person brings to the table for me.

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Romantic love, at its best, is a wonderful addiction, Dopamine is key. This neurotransmitter is the central component of the brain's reward system—the brain system that gives the lover focus, energy, motivation, and craving for the beloved. I can't think of any bigger reward than falling in love,  lies right next to brain regions that help to orchestrate thirst and hunger. Romantic love is a drive, a survival mechanism; it evolved to enable our forebears to focus their mating effort on a particular individual and begin the mating process. The sex drive activates nearby primitive regions, but it doesn't seem to contribute to as many worldwide crimes of that as passion. Romantic love is an important part of us.

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Somehow I experience all this already like many at it still surprise me and why did this person 'only', out of such an massive range/scope in todays world manage to capture my heart ultimately and out of all that distinct personalities, flatters me indefinitely into affinity,

for some in time of need where is this never ending feeling come to a stop ever. 

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2/10/2017

Saw the circuit loop,  L Y more.

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Something still got a hold on me, you smile and I am lost for a lifetime.

One minute I am up and the other I am down, making me smile making me frown.

In a world that was small it was no trouble at all,

but then you, you, you came my way and a feeling unknown took my heart [ all my senses  goes apart] and want you to stay all of my nights and all of my daaays!.

The word 'need' for you is a very underrated word in this case. OK I am quoting this time, but this is still me.

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29/09/2017

I am on another big diet again and find it a lot easier than before with the right food which nature provided naturally, PS still miss sugar.   

 

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20/08/2017

Change of mind?, clear, just like that☺📔, thank you and you are ace, , surely some of it must be true  -  long time, maybe not as that many years?, sure that we 2 were there all along.🌎🐱💃🎤.

And just for all.

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Wish you all the luck also 🌎🐶🎤🕺💃.

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I ❤ 💃 who has a 🐱🐶 that 🗣🎤, that lives in a 🏡 with a big 🌳x🌳, that might be ✈ a lot 🕶👠

I need to 🔦👩, to open the 🗝to my ❤, so we can🔦🌅💑.

 

6/8/2017 

After a recording/on memory card, video playing, while viewing at the same time a interfaces life-possible?,  confused about it, surely not true?.

Can then say only a work of a genie or God, magic or just very clever tech. possible involving streamline life internet.-At the same time you sure/believe you are watching a recorded recording afterwards?, because the interact light suppose to light up above the phone/laptop to be viewed like skype for instance, how possible can that be watching a recording/video been viewed and interacted with no light above?.

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For you, I would gladly walk a mile, if that would give me a chance to see you smile.

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A Celebrity fan I am

How great you look there, I came to be so impressed by watching you, that sort of

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Ever feel like you been locked up tight for a century of lonely nights, like a genie in a bottle

Hormones racing at the speed of light but that don't mean it's gotta be tonight, if you wanna be with me

If I can make my wish come true, have to set you free, baby and you'll be with me.

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30/07/2017

Because I was remembered just before New Year last year on Internet,  sure only we know, I still love this person, this person pop up in my mind as soon as I wake up everyday, must have been a reason that I hope it might be why you did.

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I know actions speaks louder than words, but still so as if you talk to me most of the time, so as if you here. 'with me', spontaneous is part of us and I believe we ring true, believe me it is hard to be spontaneous with a no match.

Someone held my hand and pampered me in in your long absence, it made me feel good and rest assured me, getting used to it, the world can be beautiful or even better again with a same similar powerful presence, guide me to master visual credibility through this persons image, style and behaviour, Certified Image Master sensual behaviour.

Still even though it is true a feeling like that don't go away easily and big ? to overcome it or stay forever bonded. 

And sometimes we are so hurt we rather think/believe we were bewitched instead.

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I enjoyed it on Internet, even if I might not have the strength to take it on myself to the end, anyway congrats.🍽

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Believe me love is not easy to just get in because some might take time to work on in best way,  it happened spontaneously and then developed in love a real feeling surely, maybe only those who get drunk and pull then, and goes on to believe it was beautiful behaviour the night before and then have to work on it later on.

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The way I saw you then was the best I could have ever felt and my heart went out and so as I really saw the stars again, brighter than ever before and for a moment I was so happy and still happy with a replaced feeling of awaiting my destiny, my thoughts overcrowded with feelings, see you in absence make me cry, believed I was then patient before with unconditional , no longer want to watch sad movies anymore, then time past and I end up watching sad love films again. hahaha, everyone was your face and it was the only way I saw people in different expressions. 

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12/07/2016

My impulse,  urge · impulse set a higher drive, I feel hurt, yet I want to keep on feeling it and I cant help myself, I try to keep it to myself but it is hard to do, and somehow I was born a bit to early, why not the 70's or 80's I ask?, if you can understand this you would know what I mean and now with myself it faces me in life itself.

Sometimes I can’t see myself when I see you. I can only just see you.

 

The SUN and the people, I try to understand what happened to me in at least the past 10 years.

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10/07/2017

They would never believe I know you, but it is OK really,

what is going on, you are OK?

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I am just not anybody, but I am human.

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A different look, hope I can recognise you if..., it is still you inside.

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Steps higher but you still in my mind, you have a certain look that always stick in my mind,  When I look at you, ... who can sigh more?

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22/06/2017

What?, I was trying to concentrate but was taken out of my moment 5.

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How can you know what goes on in a persons mind if they don't tell you.

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Nothing matters more than a persons happiness, but we do have obligations no matter if we rather want to go another way at least.

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I knew that somethings  might not work to well on is never forever guaranteed, but was hoping to at least make the best out of it.

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The unconscious mind is alive in all of us and  is stored in a universal "Computer" [source is another name for it]  is "all living" [ that is awareness that is alive], while the conscious mind is a hologram independently that seem to differ with other holograms to proof its learning ability feeding the Computer that is of cause learning as it goes along, the Computer set new rules with this experience which in imbedded in the future DNA, wave forms come alive into solids forms [what we call [hard] reality] only when we aware of it in turn forever guarding our future that should be full proof in working wave form that no person should be able to break and why it turns into solid/s when we dare to look, a possibility unconscious coming from another sight/way in etc,  in turn fixing our bodies were we cant reach for instance etc. Computer learns new our intellect as we go along in life which maturely and naturally as it expand our knowledge universally into the future and as we speak, so much to fill in between and will of cause it should write many books and still wont be complete, they say it know your decision 6 seconds before you make a decision which might vary and is always in front. 

Somehow it doesn't matter your ability or disability for it will improve and you/we all part of this living feeding information, through errors, accidently, deliberately etc .

Memory is not [some] stored in your brain but lights up in your head [seen under a scan] where your are thinking for ever for the living universe.

All you see is in your head and possibly not on the outside.

The Maya sim games might had more detail in the simulation then ago than the Maya games we play nowadays

They say that the world is a Computer simulation, well then your computer must be a gift/copy from creation itself and how you use it is your own limits, where and where you should internet to and it forever update is important.

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Sick of people putting banner up saying the world is going to end, the earth has stood the time for many decades and/ but still we should still not be ignorant and protect were we can, still never blame them even if I get tired of repeats, maybe the warning's could be some kind of inborn protection mode.

 

17/06/2017

Looking great on the photo where no video available, only just learning, oh and great photo, a locker

C  did you hear when music played by itself out of the blue on the Amazon Alexa, Google Chrome never do that, it was spooky, did you .. ..

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14/06/2017

long Ago

I was young then in a boarding school, I thought I was going to hate it, that changed when Aniline  walked past and the hair was long and accurately cute, a  spontaneous inclination external stimulus look on her face, amazingly hopping  on her feet smiling and eyes blinking  like a star light introducing herself to us the boys just before we went  into the school mess, I was the same age and fell kind of deeply for Aniline , my concentration  was fully focus and at that time my mother was a chef just made food for the school dinner mess- cafeteria we called it.

 

There was a piano in the very building where  Aniline played on that particular afternoon by herself for entertainment and I was even more impressed with her overall skills, D she said to me will you hold this music book for me over the piano while I play, I said yes and was a bit embarrassed with my Kaki  shorts and shirt in my brown sun tanned body of a young male and had to slightly lean over, still enjoyed the closeness while she played and so a special memory moment was born my mind that stayed there and I did through the session accidently slipped and fell over to my embarrassment but nothing compare to the moment my mind was gliding with her music and presence.

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Later in life when I was around 16 and a half my mother ask me to sing in front of guest and I did sang a song with a radio in that days at the same time as a singer of a song on the chart list so we knew the song was coming, through my song on my left side I noticed  a young girl my age and she smiled back and I  wondered at that moment how did my mother got such a looker in our house, that was the second time in my love life  that started again and it meant more then  than the last, Later through the week I came back from my apprentice  job and she was there and we were going away together as a family to some entertainment fun site for a weekend and she had to sit on my lap all the way and we end up talking so enduring to each other and I was experience that feeling yet again, if I should see these 2 lady's again it might not have the same affect with me.

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About 8 years or so ago or more it occurred again and this time there was so much more feeling, surprised and almost disgusted at my age to feel almost triple or more than the last time I was hooked and overwhelmed, that at the same time that I can feel like that even more again, maybe woman just get more surprisingly  better looking or the whole mind set improved with experience, well what ever it is it is with me still and it is harder to shake off, funny how I can explain love so little to you and yet you understand the concept so well maybe through your own experience's. this time there was a real spark in me, how can I feel like this, this feeling!!!, I can only talk about me because I am not in someone else's shoes, if I did see the spark in her eyes then surely it must mean something, and if she is reading this she might have went/skipped straight to this paragraph because the other ones means less. 

She makes me feel like she is the only living being in the world, her round glowing eyes and style is in her appearance, strangely it is how she make me feel and it override anyone else, so even if I am aware other's exist and sure they will forgive me, I wake up with her in my mind and go to bed the same way and day time occur with day reflections of her being, it is harder when your days go by without trying/getting what you need from it, but then no one will believe how this began, not even my children, might see me as a content dad but they don't even know how this unfolded. at that time I was in company of others and it might have looked if  I was not really focusing on someone, but our minds keep track in the field of being loved.

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And it is only a story of someone.

  

Meteors

If the strongest magnet can't bounce of a meteor then the impact of the meteor will/might just have a less impact on earth and will of course burn up faster before it  hits the earth, meteor examples before has made me come to the conclusion, all planets are magnetised of cause which makes them hardly goes of their course and will avoid hitting another planet because they are magnetized, reason why I believe in God still.

To much steel etc. in what ever and the magnet starts working immediately, or for instance have they found any magnets of other planets and the strength of these magnets?

All the elements that bounce of magnets has a mixture of the reaction it reacts against, possible if there is no reaction then is surely less closely compacted in substance, magnets has many uses, mainly against heavy impacts.   

And so the humble magnet gets engineered and is a life saver in the end and really was before, ha.

It is a Gods weapon against for our protection and may it not be used in the wrong hands  for future reference. Amen.

 

12/06/2017

Between people who truly care and love each other, there are times where you don't need to say anything. no words can express them., the weeks have been filled with activities of a different kind – with a different focus, and got lost even no it might feel like that still and to far what would seem close , believe we should really feel close from what would seem far, try to keep our heads up high and our dreams to the sky, deeply and strongly felt, earnest profound  feeling, to me can you even be better looking and your spirit I should know is hard to match. 

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You and me might have felt at times in giving up and it stood still the same apart from that now, amaze me.

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Message only like we can was send back and forward in our own way, and it was amusedly that small talk made such an impact  with big heartfelt and what you liked I admired, what you saw up the sky was our universe how it should look on earth us together.

 

I was wrong... and you were right, what can I do right now to bring a smile to your face? , though I  love you even when you’re upset, in or what can I help, when you’re having a hard time babe. then let me take over, but remember take all the time you need to get your thoughts and feelings out. I’m not going anywhere,  you’re normally more resilient when things are hard, might know by your personality, so I’ll start with the bottom line and you can ask for more details if you need them, and that’s what matters the most even if we lose everything I still have you and there will be a time for laughter again, promise to remember no more than three questions in a row, with such a detailed mind you have, when you raise your arm and the questions keep coming in and I try to keep up with your description at that moment and I really notice the look on your face and it is still in my memory.

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Good thing to know we can change.

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Bacteria

There might be a concern that there might be bacteria got into contact with Mars from earth and that is inevitable, first it might contaminate and the when done start a new form, so what bacteria is not something you can completely get rid of and might be bacteria that starts of the part of the beginning of earths  life itself, who knows that all that satellites that was send out had bacteria from earth and there was contact with other planets and it might just form a life somewhere else in the future because of bacteria from earth which is good for human adoption on earth and not so good for alien forms, or good for alien forms in a new start, God know what it might generate and it was/is already done and the satellites even in our sky's surely it is outside our earth and we have not much of an idea how bacteria or an idea how it strives to survive [ bacteria ] wherever it get in contact work, makes you think it might give life to other alien places and start a life of ending up with a atmosphere and all the minerals etc that combines a life even if the sun is to far or to near it is known to survive in extreme conditions from what I heard of science experts, surely the know about it and the seed is planted maybe already by Nasa  and by God on earth, what ever they might know it or not it already started, surely it must have been in their minds before., satellites/rockets have been out ages ago as far as I can remember.

Surely you must know what we live with the bacteria conditions  and we survive/d which make us more Alien really than other aliens.  

with all the variety's on such a beautiful earth we are bound to have extreme bacteria conditions.

Hope it give hope rather than despair for all and hopefully that is good.

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Plant seeds also get stored nowadays also just encase we end up in a bad situation anyway and have a long survival rate been stored as we might know already.

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11/06/2017

They say that if Planet X don't pass earth this year 2017 then all prophesies will collapse if it doesn't happen but then again they will say the dates are wrong and from what they understand in the book of  Revelations [ Bible ] and some people on You Tube have seen Planet X appearing looking as a double sun with our sun in our Constellation System at sun rise etc, it will appear under the Virgo Constellation they say which means it around August/September, things I just don't want to believe will happen because of the horror that happen in religion,  but they come to a conclusion the world is bad and in a state.

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Something strange happen:  it was hot almost every country when I ask Google Home the weather in a lot of countries in the world and on top of it my son tries to outsmart Google Home by asking silly questions.

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Ariana Grande has a great heart and with all that happened.

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The heart never lies babe.

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When I went to Blackpool you were 10 then, I heard it was said later then in a history program.

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California had 191 Earthquakes: As of noon on Sunday, January 1st, California had undergone 191 Earthquakes within 24 hours.

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Roger Ebert May Be Gone, But Ebertfest Lived On

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Jon Hamm Appeared on Sesame Street  this week, ha.

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This morning I missed a lot of things, it just came over me all of a sudden, just remember how we used to imitate each other over the internet previous years and how you smiled then.

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Note written in here is only related to what people on the internet say

A gift of/in life and I thank God, never know how lovely you are, humble I am for it and your sense of being is overriding a time gone past and maybe you are forgiving as well as a beautiful person, it is nice that you tell me everything and it wouldn't matter who you are I think you lovely anyway without a word, we are only human and the wonderful people who speak nice of you just tell it how it is, it means a lot to me.

Every parent wishes happiness for there children I must surely believe.

She sings as well, it surprised me.

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Worth a repeat about/for the beloved

Has someone else promise you love and everything "under the sun" and it never progressed and now you beginning to think it is a lie and not true,

or does someone else love you and ask you for a relationship but you love the person you waiting for, for sometime now and you stuck with nothing happening?, the fact that I love you more than anything in the world and I never ask for forgiveness because it never crossed my mind and because of love I felt second and was waiting and always whole hardly believe it is was/my destiny and  the clock is clicking past the moment I awaited and would have gladly received/live with it years ago without any hesitation, a story written for lovers only of cause, and we have heard of long lost who find their love when they really old and wrinkly at the end and still makes a dash for it, what I saw on internet, movies and ourselves with all the complications that kept them apart until the almost last moment in there life.

Unconditional love sucks when you cant shake of the feeling  when you have to progress in the future.

Some love stars because it over the top that they never really expect to happen deep in their mind might make them more ready for a realistic relationship local when it happens.  

Even me has seen my parents love for another person and there was waiting involved at times.

Your first love and you intermediate is always the most loving in most people's life.

Why would a person waist their love in the moment when they don't mean it, surely the beloved should surely know.

Oh the mysteries in life even surprised me.

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She is only a year or so older than you and a important person in public, I might believe I knew her mother then before yours, when I had a break and met her outside in the same local town on a night off in the Army that was  before  I went on that long trip to Cape town with a mate male friend, why I might have mentioned her before and I cant sometimes remember everything in detail in the past, could it be a gut feeling I got wrong, she is so like us too, believe me I try not to miss out a person before when I was around 18 in a house before, could be the same lady both times,-happened, effect so fast-strong, but over so quickly,  afterwards believe she was she was some kind of  wizard,  know so little and she might know more about me till today , older or about the same age as me,  might still live in England now, oh and I was about 20/21 when I came to England?

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Talking about planet X  Something Strange is Definitely Going On!  or hear say?

Nemesis, NIBIRU, what ever you call it, they say is moving in/past our planet system.- https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zo68ry72V30- update

Things and changes I have noticed before sunrise apart from seeing 2 planets and one that is dark red, when the sun goes behind the clouds it is almost twice as dark than usual, because combine it is more light and less and if planet X is dragging asteroids behind it and be about a million or so more miles when it pass by and yet it will be more clearly than the moon to observe they say and that we have a second sun visible at the same time all over You-Tube, the asteroids will be stuck to planet x and it is no way the asteroids will steer of to earth because of planet x magnetic pull on the asteroids stronger than earth I believe, and the effects it has on storms and the sun solar flares 2017 etc. or past, just one of the damages might be already is "Local dealers react to 4,300 car hail damage story" ---https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HG9zjcNOk7M, ---> video below

and story's surrounding it, in Italy for instance it only rain on one spot lately from the sky and no clouds.-

"Bizarre moment rain falls in one small puddle in Italy" - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sQJRtdu6Z0U

Something Strange is Definitely Going On! (2017-2018) - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gvxzv_psExs - advance fish nowadays getting smarter-

also as you seen/heard some fish dying out and cant be explained nowadays. Fish are dying in mass in Florida -

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KWXpaZ1QHXc

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06/06/2017

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Surely must ask questions

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1. Given the choice of anyone in the world, whom would you want as a dinner guest?

2. Would you like to be famous? In what way?

3. Before making a telephone call, do you ever rehearse what you are going to say? Why?

4. What would constitute a “perfect” day for you?

5. When did you last sing to yourself? To someone else?

6. If you were able to live to the age of 90 and retain either the mind or body of a 30-year-old for the last 60 years of your life, which would you want?

7. Do you have a secret hunch about how you will die?

8. Name three things you and your partner appear to have in common.

9. For what in your life do you feel most grateful?

10. If you could change anything about the way you were raised, what would it be?

11. Take four minutes and tell your partner your life story in as much detail as possible.

12. If you could wake up tomorrow having gained any one quality or ability, what would it be?


13. If a crystal ball could tell you the truth about yourself, your life, the future or anything else, what would you want to know?

14. Is there something that you’ve dreamed of doing for a long time? Why haven’t you done it?

15. What is the greatest accomplishment of your life?

16. What do you value most in a friendship?

17. What is your most treasured memory?

18. What is your most terrible memory?

19. If you knew that in one year you would die suddenly, would you change anything about the way you are now living? Why?

20. What does friendship mean to you?

21. What roles do love and affection play in your life?

22. Alternate sharing something you consider a positive characteristic of your partner. Share a total of five items.

23. How close and warm is your family? Do you feel your childhood was happier than most other people’s?

24. How do you feel about your relationship with your mother?

25. Make three true “we” statements each. For instance, “We are both in this room feeling ... “

26. Complete this sentence: “I wish I had someone with whom I could share ... “

27. If you were going to become a close friend with your partner, please share what would be important for him or her to know.

28. Tell your partner what you like about them; be very honest this time, saying things that you might not say to someone you’ve just met.

29. Share with your partner an embarrassing moment in your life.

30. When did you last cry in front of another person? By yourself?

31. Tell your partner something that you like about them already.

32. What, if anything, is too serious to be joked about?

33. If you were to die this evening with no opportunity to communicate with anyone, what would you most regret not having told someone? Why haven’t you told them yet?

34. Your house, containing everything you own, catches fire. After saving your loved ones and pets, you have time to safely make a final dash to save any one item. What would it be? Why?

35. Of all the people in your family, whose death would you find most disturbing? Why?

36. Share a personal problem and ask your partner’s advice on how he or she might handle it. Also, ask your partner to reflect back to you how you seem to be feeling about the problem you have chosen.

10/05/2017

Can No Longer Dance the Dance of Roles in Your Relationship

How often has the future come up lately? Do you find yourself avoiding the topic?

“Sometimes you can get so busy trying to be everyone else’s anchor that you don’t even realize that you are drowning.” ~ Anonymous

Resentment—the signal to change'

Who am I if I am not this role? Knowing someone else will take your role from you makes it is easier to release it

Making space for You, roles fear love, but deep inside, they, the soulful people.

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Time waiting is time wasting away, think hard if you going to wait for another

Then I say half heartily I don't make it my business, I don't care,  free to do as you want I say or I really don't care when it is not  for me or in for my life anymore and make myself believe that.

What I mean it means nothing to me if it isn't my life meant for a relationship.

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Someone has hurt you badly, if I can say badly in this love triangle you are in still and you believe this person love you way above any other

It is possible it didn't happen to you yet because of a distance away, but we have emails, skype nowadays, so I doubt it might or will ever happen.

Or has someone else promise you love and everything "under the sun" and it never progressed and now you beginning to think it is a lie and not true,

or does someone else love you and ask you for a relationship but you love the person you waiting for, for sometime now and you stuck with nothing happening?

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11/4/2017

You know that I've seen too many romantic dreams
Up in lights, falling off the silver screen

My heart's like an open book for the whole world to read
Sometimes it seems nothing keeps me together at the seams.

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9/4/2017

7 years or so  ago I noticed you, if I was lucky you might have knew me before, what I wanted to say was I was then aware of the strange feeling inside, will God save this uniqueness ,and will be from both sides in return,

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It isn't so as much the things that you say or do.

that make me want you so, its the way you make me feel.

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Makes any day's seem so unreal somehow.

So similar its scary.

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4/4/2017 

I always be happy if you happy, whatever direction you choose.

An unconditional love as you may know, means there is no complaining for how long it last, even as we know there is a end in some and suffering may stop, things and a in another for a better new hopeful start again, it is always hard to replace what you set your heart on in the first place and second place is no good, as we know you don't always know until you tried.. or love another.

Some things in life about love is true and some is false, I pray and hope that it gets better for a real life soon.

Significance of living or existence in general as a loving couple comes closest to the meaning of life is the best we can do or hope to live.

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GREAT TRUTHS ABOUT LIFE

When your Mom is mad at your Dad, don't let her brush your hair.

You can't trust dogs to watch your food

School lunches stick to the wall

Raising teenagers is like nailing Jell-O to a tree.

I finally got my head together, and my body fell apart

Age doesn't always bring wisdom, sometimes age comes alone.

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Being busy does not equal being productive - you're the product of your output, not your effort.

Great success is often preceded by failure - the ability to maintain a good attitude even while suffering for what you believe in.

Fear is the No. 1 source of regret. -  to not by allowing yourself to die inside while you're still alive.

Your self-worth must come from within -  might know by now you're never as good or bad as they say you are.

Only as good as those you associate with. -  not to allow anyone who makes you feel worthless.

Life is short. - moment you start acting like life is a blessing is the moment it will start acting like one.

You don't have to wait for an apology to forgive - forgive, it simply frees you from being their eternal victim.

You're living the life you've created. - If you're feeling stuck, it's probably because you're afraid to take the risks necessary to achieve your goals and live your dreams.

Live in the moment. - accept your past, accept the uncertainty of the future.

Change is inevitable, embrace it - you'll never be present enough to enjoy the great moments before they're gone, what makes you happy?

As always we learn from each other.

 

THE FOUR STAGES OF LIFE:

 1) You believe in Santa Claus.
 2) You don't believe in Santa Claus.
 3) You are Santa Claus.
 4) You look like Santa Claus.

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29/3/2017

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Secret's about me:  

Years ago in my early life I wanted to be Elvis Presley of course, and there was times I was obsessed with Cheryl Cole, just something about her, have admiration for Angela Jolie in her believe for the world, always wandered if I can ever have as much fun as Paris Hilton and while she's working, where did Adriana Lima get such a beauty and fit and a believer with such a faith, Wish I could be like Kirsten Steward, brave to choose how she steer her life and one of the best Lynn Hirschberg's screen test I have then ever seen on You Tube and lovely, Lady Gaga attractive [ music genius ] talented in everything she takes on, art, music, changing direction etc-wow. Cara Delevingne one of the best models in any field, lucky to have choices for direction with success in careers.

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I personally don't see much difference in gender choice anymore, the world is a changing.

It feels as nature is always a step ahead of technology and science somehow, but believe in all for a better world. 

Mannerism is very important to me and respect.

I prefer a personal private save invitations in a welcome way  rather than on the spot surprises that makes me bewildered.

I am/will of course be happy for someone  if they happy with another, even if I was not the choice.

I love watching life shows and game shows, money is/might be important but a loving relationship means all to me.

I love independency, makes me stronger as a person, doesn't mean I prefer to be alone.

I believe even at this stage/age life has not started yet, have so much to give.

If I had better secure choices I would have gone that way long ago, even if I could have been happier then.

I am sure this time... when I love, and can be the happiest in my life.

Ever if things look bleak in the world I still have to watch the news to know what is going on in the world.

Not knowing is painful what I need to know and would not care if it wasn't for me anyway even if it was only thing on my mind.

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Forever ongoing successful presenters like Emma Willis, Holy Willoughby, Davina McCall

Even if I didn't see my most of  family overseas that they are independent and  magnificent and · smashing · divine.

You even know yourself with who you would be the happiest with,  it is written on your face and first thing in your mind when you awake and might even easy to make that person choose you and be really happy with you.

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27/3/2017

I am going to have a lot of fun from now on, because I don't care.. is what you taught me I came to believe.

Who is looking up the 'Heart brake Survival Plan', hard to overcome and we not alone, somehow it seems we fall for someone usually that loves another and that another loves another and so it goes on indefinitely  in many cases, unconditional love is hard to define and then again not for hard-core lovers that are forever followers, even if it's only in your mind that make you believe it.

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I myself believe when 2 people love each other forever and no one can compare to who they love, is also indefinite and hard to break or breach when life are so different for both, heartache is forever part of their life's, to get self-confidence, back, once again should they live together because it all they desire is each other, happiness is all that matter and it surprising how people can live and make it for so long-long apart when just one moment can change the moment for a lifetime of happiness or content or as long as it last.

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So he/she said I don't know what to do or what to do with myself, I really don't like the situation.. I am in it to keep up with life,  but I bare it for now and a plan in the end will work is all I put my hope on, because there is no one like you in this world and I have not seen anyone to compare at all or at least similar, those similar's I have seen look fake and is not you.

 

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23/3/2017 

How much you on my mind lately,  you show the world how you would dress your lashes as you would your body, great.

What happened to my favourite lady?, don't tell me I have missed something again...

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I know the world can be crazy but I hope you can bear for now.

Hold on a bit... because you must know you mean the world to me.

I promise I will be by your side and we both will be really happier then at last.

I believe I know what happiness means since I saw you at first back then, how can I ever know it or feel at ease without you, the only thing that make sense in this world, a leading lady you are.

It feels if your all over the place doing OK even if I haven't seen or heard about you lately.

Even since and everyday you to come into my thoughts as possible without me trying.

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There is no one correct order for these to appear in in this unfinished love letter… these are simply elements. Some of them will resonate with you and others might not mean as much to you. That’s fine. Use whatever useful for you.... You do so many little things day to day that only ever elevate my opinion of you. You are such a gift in my life and you deserve to know it... I’m not so good with talking about my feelings sometimes, it seems forever ongoing with me,  but I didn’t want my thoughts to go unsaid… so I thought saying like this would be best...

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I love how you encourage the best parts of me. I am healthier at times a bit lost, but more driven, and more emotionally fulfilled than at any other point in my life and that is in large part because of you, sure you will helped me turn my dreams into a reality in so many areas of my life. in turns  makes you a absolute blessing.

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I love your drive and ambition. I have endless faith that you’ll achieve anything you put your mind to, I know you are so amazingly loyal to those you care about. The depth with which you love others is nothing short of inspiring. I love your massive heart.

I have endless respect for you and the way that you carry yourself in this world. So thank you for being you.

 

Maybe it’s the fact that you’ll have children one day… or a trip to Paris that you want to take in a few years… or kissing each other’s wrinkly old faces. Whatever it is, it something that I am authentically excited about a shared future for what remain.

I can say much more but this will do for now.

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Maybe as I noticed you keep [ or trying] on repairing things even if it doesn't seem to come off, you know I am thankful.

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4/3/2017

Time goes by and I am with you always wherever you go or may be,  your smile stay with me.

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7/2/2017

Starting new

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Love Letter (Clouds)

BY SARAH MANGUSO

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I didn’t fall in love. I fell through it: 

Came out the other side moments later, hands full of matter, waking up from the dream of a bullet tearing through the middle of my body. 

I no longer understand anything for longer than a long moment, or the time it takes to receive the shot. 

This kind of gravity is like falling through a cloud, forgetting it all, and then being told about it later. On the day you fell through a cloud . . . 

It must be true. If it were not, then when did these strands of silver netting attach to my hair? 

The problem was finding that you were real and not just a dream of clouds. 

If you weren’t real, I would address this letter to one of two entities: myself, or everyone else. The effect would be equivalent. 

The act of falling happens in time. That is, it takes long enough for the falling to shear away from the moments before and the moments after, long enough for one to have thought I am falling. I have been falling. I continue to fall. 

Falling through a ring, in this case, would not mean falling through the center of the annulus—a planet floats there. Falling through the ring means falling through the spaces between the objects that together make the ring. 

On the way through, clasp your fists around the universe: 

Nothing but ice-gravel. 

But open your hands when you reach the other side. Quickly, before it melts.   

What did I leave you?

 

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